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LJ Idol Week 4: Afterthought

Afterthought (n): an addition that was not included in the original plan.


I thought I would meet him in high school, my true love. We would know each other, but not well. He would look on from afar, a secret admirer afraid to share his true feelings. When finally the secret came out, we would discover that we both adored each other and wanted the same things. There would be a kiss, our first. It would be one of those wonderful, out-of-control, I-wasn't-planning-this moments. I imagined that he would find me beautiful, despite my distaste for makeup and the fact that I was not Homecoming Queen material. I dreamed he would love me for exactly who I was and no matter what anyone said, he would be proud to stand by my side. The two of us would go off to college together and our relationship would be endless. This was my personal fairy tale, and I clung to it like a security blanket.

The problem with my fairy tale was that this mysterious man was terrible at showing up. I couldn't figure out why he didn't appear in high school, as I hoped he would. As I got older, I thought that he must be in college. I was always a little more mature than my classmates, so perhaps my fairy tale hero was a college student in disguise. I looked for him my entire freshman year. I waited for a while, indulging my friends in their stories of crazy sexual encounters and romantic dates. My fairy tale love was a no-show. Then it occurred to me. Of course! Maybe this incredible guy wasn't going to find me, I thought. Maybe I needed to find him. I began dating around, searching for a glimpse of the real thing among each man I met. I was so desperate for the fairy tale that I bought into the illusion, which evaporated the moment each guy decided he was ready to move on.

I became so blinded by skepticism that I nearly failed to recognize the real thing when I stumbled upon it. Nothing happened the way I originally planned. First of all, he wasn't my secret admirer. He was someone I met online, and after several weeks of phone calls, semi-reluctantly agreed to go out with. The day of our first date, a rainstorm of biblical proportions hit my city.When my date showed up (in a Scion, not a white horse), I looked like a drowned rat. I stepped into his car, and we laid eyes on one another for the first time. I was unprepared for his ocean eyes, which made my heart skip a beat. My knees shook as he drove us to the movies. When he parked the car, we had our first kiss.

"I didn't say hello to you properly," he said, and kissed me on the lips. I barely kissed back due to surprise! This guy was nothing like my fairytale hero, with his shy, secret-admirer ways. This guy was bold. What kind of fairytale was this, anyway?

Over the past five years, I've let go of my fairy tale. I discovered that reality is much more satisfying. The love of my life is not my rescuer, but my partner and equal. He is handsome and slightly nerdy, and he makes me laugh with his dry wit. I am often astounded by his brilliance, and even more by how unaware he is of it. He has the kindest, most loving heart of anyone I've ever met. Love comes easily to him, and he loves me more than I ever imagined someone would. We don't live in a grand castle far away, but in a little apartment with three crazy animals and some slightly beat-up furniture. It is far from perfect, and yet I can think of nothing I love more.

True love is not always a part of the original plan. Sometimes true love is the afterthought.



This is my entry for therealljidol. Thanks so much for reading and supporting me in the competition so far. I hope you will vote for me if you enjoyed this entry.

Comments

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banyangirl1832
Dec. 4th, 2010 01:54 am (UTC)
Awwww. :) I'm so happy you found your knight, even if he drives a Scion and not a white horse.
awriterswindow
Dec. 4th, 2010 02:34 am (UTC)
Haha the Scion isn't so bad...although I've told him that his next car will have to be a four-door. :) And thanks!
solstice_singer
Dec. 4th, 2010 02:09 am (UTC)
I loved this! You're right. Reality is often better than the fairy tales we dream of. Sometimes, perfection isn't all it's cracked up to be.
awriterswindow
Dec. 4th, 2010 02:35 am (UTC)
Thanks so much! I appreciate you reading. It's definitely a lot more fun not to be perfect and to be surprised rather than plan it all out (but naturally I still try to plan it all out!). ;)
basric
Dec. 4th, 2010 05:44 am (UTC)
A lovely story written very well.
awriterswindow
Dec. 4th, 2010 01:44 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much!
edith_jones
Dec. 4th, 2010 10:03 pm (UTC)
My husband is better than any fairy tale. I'm glad that you found the same in your own life, and I loved the way you told it.
-Allie.
awriterswindow
Dec. 5th, 2010 02:51 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much! :)
majesticarky
Dec. 4th, 2010 10:09 pm (UTC)
Very sweet. I liked where this went.
awriterswindow
Dec. 5th, 2010 02:51 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much for reading! :)
myrna_bird
Dec. 4th, 2010 11:36 pm (UTC)
I love how you developed this entry. It was very enjoyable.
awriterswindow
Dec. 5th, 2010 02:52 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much! I appreciate you reading.
hellboy
Dec. 5th, 2010 01:16 am (UTC)
Oh, this is lovely :)
awriterswindow
Dec. 5th, 2010 02:52 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :)
isis_lives
Dec. 5th, 2010 01:30 am (UTC)
Lovely entry. Nice development of your story.
awriterswindow
Dec. 5th, 2010 02:53 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much! I appreciate the compliment.
robertlyon
Dec. 5th, 2010 06:09 pm (UTC)
I'm glad that you were able to find that.
awriterswindow
Dec. 5th, 2010 11:07 pm (UTC)
Me too. Thanks so much for reading. :)
nyxocity
Dec. 6th, 2010 12:16 am (UTC)
This is wonderful! I'm so happy for you. I enjoyed reading this :)
awriterswindow
Dec. 9th, 2010 01:04 am (UTC)
Thank you very much! :) I'm glad you enjoyed it.
reixetvobi
Dec. 6th, 2010 10:20 am (UTC)
Aw, this is so sweet!
awriterswindow
Dec. 9th, 2010 01:04 am (UTC)
Thank you!
kehlen
Dec. 6th, 2010 10:36 am (UTC)
I love your prince charming descriptions :D and what came of them.

Edited at 2010-12-06 10:36 am (UTC)
awriterswindow
Dec. 9th, 2010 01:05 am (UTC)
Thank you! And I love your icon!
rockbirthedme
Dec. 7th, 2010 12:00 am (UTC)
A knight in a Scion is more to my taste -- it's too much trouble mucking out after a horse, white or otherwise.

I'd have missed my true love if it hadn't been for someone else getting into an interfering mood. Isn't it funny how that works? I like this entry.
awriterswindow
Dec. 9th, 2010 01:05 am (UTC)
It is! We can never plan it as perfectly as it happens.
chris_walsh
Dec. 7th, 2010 02:04 pm (UTC)
A happy story, well-conveyed.
awriterswindow
Dec. 9th, 2010 01:05 am (UTC)
Thank you!
snarkerdoodle
Dec. 7th, 2010 05:34 pm (UTC)
People all too often miss reality because of the fairy tale or dream, I agree. Very nicely done. :)
awriterswindow
Dec. 9th, 2010 01:05 am (UTC)
Thanks so much for reading!
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