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I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that people cannot see humanity.
I'm sorry that the world is filled with people who can only see sexuality, gender, race, religion.
I'm sorry that many people cannot love.
I'm sorry that the world seems to be boiling in hatred.
I'm sorry that there will always be ignorance.
I'm sorry that people are blind to the issues that tear us apart.
I'm sorry that what you have gone through is a plague upon mankind.
I'm sorry that people only try to see in black and white, and never through someone else's eyes.
-Erin Justice

I just saw the most god-awful website, and my insides froze. I have not felt something like that in a long long time. I felt something else for the tsunamis. A sadness. But this is different. This is what you feel when you become aware that there is so much hate in this world for reasons I cannot explain. What is strange is that not only did I find this website through an lj entry today (from a person also in awe of the odious nature of the world), but I was talking about this same type of thing tonight with a friend.

What is it with the hate for minorities? Please don't misunderstand me. I'm not saying that everyone hates minorities. What I'm saying is that I don't understand why anyone has anything against a person of color, size, a different sexuality, a different country, etc etc etc.

I don't like to argue. I honestly don't. When I hear my peers saying hateful things, though, I have to speak out. There was this activist group in the 80's called ACTA, and their slogan was, "Silence=death". Absolutely. Margaret Cho elaborated on that and said that silence equals nonexistence, meaning that if she never "went there" and said something controversial, it would mean she never existed in the first place. That's why I can't stay silent when I'm sitting in my comp class listening to a bunch of stuck up kids talk about affirmative action and prove that they have no idea why the hell it exists. For some strange reason, they seem to think that affirmative action automatically gives a minority acceptance into a college or into a job position. Oh, does it really? Well, dammit, I wish I'd known that. I would have applied for Harvard. Because I'll get in, right? It doesn't matter if I have the right qualifications. I'm a minority, so I get everything I want. Yeah, right.

Do they even listen to themselves and how ignorant they sound? Probably not, because if they did, they wouldn't have taken it a step further and announced that if, "they don't like it" (they meaning black people), "they can go back to Africa." EXCUSE ME? Okay, you would have never said that if a black kid was in the room with you. You know you wouldn't have.

I really hate that I sat behind a kid who, on the last day of class for the first semester, decided to make fun of one of my black friends and say a million untrue, racist things about her. By the time I realized who they were talking about and recovered from complete shock and rage, it was too late to say anything. And what would I say? Because nothing I could say would change their minds or take back their words.

I really hate that I can't stand up for what I believe in when someone is making fun of someone else's sexuality without being called a dyke or a lesbian or whatever. Oh, so if I stand up for something, I automatically am that thing? Yeah, that just makes so much fucking sense.

Why is it anyone's concern what someone's sexuality is? Why do people care if someone's skin color differs from their own? I really don't get why so many are so hateful and so ignorant. I really resent it when they bring God into it.

"God hates the Swedish."
"God is putting his vengence upon us with the tsunamis."
"God hates gay people."

Oh yeah, and God loves you so much because you're white, American, and consider yourself a Christian. Like any of those things matter.

Excuse me, but who the fuck are you to tell everyone what God does and doesn't like? Are you his messenger all of a sudden? You can't be, because the God I know and worship is not hateful like that. He doesn't take revenge upon his creation in the form of a tsunami. He doesn't hate people for what they cannot change about themselves. What language a person speaks or what country they come from do not matter to Him. He is the God of love and He is love, and love means no discrimination. Love is colorblind and gender-blind and nationality-blind and sexuality-blind. Love is love is love is love.

I'd really love it if everyone knew that to be true.

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flamingomingo
Jan. 7th, 2005 11:24 am (UTC)
I completely agree. So-called "Christians" who say that God hates gay people or any other minority group are hypocrites. God wants us to love one another despite differences, and I have more faith in Him to believe that He would create somebody that He hated.
awriterswindow
Jan. 7th, 2005 02:14 pm (UTC)
Exactly. I hate that it turns people off to God. Some people hear those things and they think that maybe it is true, maybe God does hate them, and that's not true at all.
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awriterswindow
Jan. 7th, 2005 02:20 pm (UTC)
I understand what you mean. And if someone wants to give me money because I'm hispanic, I won't turn it down. What upsets me is when other people assume (and it's a great deal of people, because I've watched them talk about it in classes) that if you're black or hispanic or asian or whatever, you automatically get whatever you want as far as college and job opportunities just because of your race or ethnicity. A lot of people don't take the time to see that maybe those people are qualified, and they just happen to be minorities. Or they don't see the importance of diversity.

It's more than just race, though. It's sexuality and what size you are as a person...there are really a lot of minorities out there.
last_chance_314
Jan. 7th, 2005 08:41 pm (UTC)
wow...those are things that ive been thinking about lately...i agree with what you have to say 100%. some of these people in the world today are just burning me out from the way they act. no matter what type of a difference we make there will always be ignorance, they will learn sooner or later.
awriterswindow
Jan. 7th, 2005 09:27 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I totally agree with what you said as well. It's just really tiring to see people acting like that and hear them saying ignorant things like that.
kerp
Jan. 7th, 2005 09:43 pm (UTC)
We studied this in sociology. And I think what I got from it is that people are raised in an environment where probably their parents are racist, and they see their parents and what they do, and they become a racist too. I'm definitely not saying this about everyone, but I think it's true for a lot of people. I also think that people are raised in an environment where there are no minorities, and when they see different types of people, they automatically assume that they are bad or whatever.
awriterswindow
Jan. 11th, 2005 03:05 am (UTC)
Definitely. My mom always used to say that. She would always say, "Do you think people were born like that?" And she's right, they're not. Hate is learned, not genetic.
cheapblackpens
Jan. 8th, 2005 01:03 am (UTC)
I felt like throwing up and sobbing at the same time. I just can't believe people would feel that way. How? HOW? I don't understand why people think preaching their hate makes them righteous and moral. I don't understand why someone would go to hell for being who they are and embracing LOVE.

Another thing that bothers me is the virgin/whore schism. Our English teacher was discussing it the other day and I totally understood what she meant.

♥ Justice
awriterswindow
Jan. 11th, 2005 03:11 am (UTC)
I know. I could not believe that site. I just couldn't. And the thing that shocked me is that it wasn't just anti-gay propaganda. I couldn't believe that they went on to say that the tsunami victims deserve it. The thing that really horrifies me is that people like that turn other people off to God. Others start to believe that maybe God is some vengeful person who wants to wreak havoc on people because of color or sexuality. It's awful. Who are these people? What, just because you're a white American male, you're a chosen person?

I don't understand why we aren't allowed to love who we want to without encountering hatred. It makes me afraid to be honest.

I know what you mean about that virgin/whore thing. What did your teacher say?
cheapblackpens
Jan. 11th, 2005 10:26 pm (UTC)
My teacher said that often in literature, women are usually either virgins or whores. We tried coming up with women that represented a "normal" life - both sexual interest and the life of a mother/daughter/sister, etc. In one of the books we're reading, women are presented with a normal balance and less dichotomy.
awriterswindow
Jan. 12th, 2005 09:35 pm (UTC)
She's probably right. I mean, there has to be some balance between being a slut and being a nun. If a woman can use her sexuality in a responsible way that honors the act of sex, then she doesn't have to be either one of those things.
awriterswindow
Jan. 12th, 2005 09:35 pm (UTC)
♥ the icon, btw.
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