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Forget regret or life is yours to miss...

Happy Birthday, Austin!
Have an awesome birthday! Love you!

No other road
No other way
No day but today


So at 4:30 am I woke up completely freaked out about the surgery. Like, can't breathe, can't sleep, ohmygodwhatamidoing freaked out. I was lucky enough to find a community on LJ for women who have had/are getting breast reductions, so it's kind of comforting to hear that everyone else woke up the morning of surgery and wanted to cancel it, too. I think I'm just going to try to get my mind off of it for today and tomorrow...put my focus where it needs to be for the holidays. When they're over, all systems are go for BR plans.

I was going to apologize for talking about this so much, and then I decided against it. I mean, this is the biggest thing that's ever happened to me. I'll talk about it as much as I want. :)


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Dec. 24th, 2004 07:25 am (UTC)
if i bitch and complain about the guy problems i have you have even more of a right to be worried and talk nonstop about this. this is something BIG and very serious for you. we're with you all the way with this. can we visit you when you get home after your surgery?
Dec. 24th, 2004 10:40 am (UTC)
Thank you so much. I really needed to hear that from someone who cares about me. I really love and appreciate that my friends are with me on this and that they tell me that they are...it means so much to me. Like you said, this is huge and it's a serious thing for me, so to have the support of you and Rach and Holly and everyone is the best thing I can imagine. You guys can definitely visit me. I would love that. :)

Love you!
Dec. 24th, 2004 07:54 am (UTC)
What are boobies?
Dec. 24th, 2004 10:41 am (UTC)
The things attached to my body that get more attention than I do.
Dec. 24th, 2004 07:31 pm (UTC)
I have one of those! But I call mine a belly-button.
Dec. 24th, 2004 07:38 pm (UTC)
But in all seriousness, I'm sure it'll go fine My Grandpa went through surgery today and the operation had about a ten percent chance of succeeding. You know what happened? He's now perfectly fine. And I'm sure the same will apply to you. I bet you'll look great afterwards(not that you don't look fine now.) As always, much love
Dec. 25th, 2004 10:40 pm (UTC)
That made me smile, so thank you. And I'm glad your grandfather is okay. Thanks for everything you said...it means a lot.

Love you, too. :)
Dec. 25th, 2004 10:38 pm (UTC)
Dec. 24th, 2004 08:29 am (UTC)
My aunt had the same procedure done a few months ago with incredible results and she has never been happier. And so you know, Anesthesia is like the best nights sleep you will ever have. Good luck Love ya!
Dec. 24th, 2004 10:42 am (UTC)
That made me feel a lot better, so thank you. :)

Love you too!
Dec. 24th, 2004 10:33 am (UTC)
good luck with the surgery dear! i'm sure that once the strain on your back is gone, you'll be happy you didn't back out.


Dec. 24th, 2004 10:43 am (UTC)
Thanks, Steph. I know you're right about that. I was thinking today that when it's gone I'll realize that the strain was even worse than I thought it was.


P.S. Merry Christmas!
Dec. 24th, 2004 10:47 am (UTC)
merry christmas to you too! (and happy new years, blablabla<3)

Dec. 25th, 2004 10:40 pm (UTC)
Dec. 24th, 2004 12:53 pm (UTC)
Couple things.

1) I had no clue you were getting breast reduction. Wow. That's a pretty big thing. I wish you the best of luck with that. I'm sure you'll come through fine. And like everyone else said, once you're back has been relieved a little bit, you'll be glad you came through.

2) Did you get my card? I'm hoping so. I know Dan got his, and I sent it out on the same day, so i'm assuming you did. If you didn't, there's going to be a WWF smackdown at the post office when I get home.

3) I hadn't been to your actual LJ in a while.. I had just been reading from my friends page.. And can I say.. I LOVE THE NEW LAYOUT.. I am SO obsessed with Rent it's not even funny. It's amazing. Gorgeous! And "What you Own" is my favorite song.. (not to mention "One Song Glory" as well as "Another Day" - Which I think is the title, but i'm totally having a mind blank.. -- number 15 on the Disk One --) What? Me? Obsessed? :)

I feel kinda bad we haven't had the chance to talk lately. So much is going on. I've been so busy, and while that's no excuse, I've kind of been stressed, and neglecting all of my relationships. I can't seem to get a handle on things, and the fact that LJ won't let me post lately (it always gives me the error pages... i've had to make a friend post things for me.. it's been a mess), It doesn't make things easier on communication..

Anyway, wow. I've practically made a post in your comments section.. Lol - pardon me for ranting.. I'm very deprived of my journaling..

<3 Always..
Dec. 25th, 2004 10:51 pm (UTC)
1) Thanks. You're right...it is a big thing. I've wanted to do it since this time last year, and they wouldn't touch me until I was 17, so now I can do it. I just can't wait to wear normal clothes...I am incredibly excited about things like halter tops and dresses. It'll take a while for me to be completely healed and to go down to the size I am supposed to be because of swelling and stuff, but there will be some difference within a day or so, which is so cool.

2) Yes, I did! I got it the other day. Thank you so much for everything you said. It really meant so much to me. It's nice to know that you mean something to someone. I am saving that note. :) Your card is a tish late...I'm bad about these things. You will get it, though! I promise.

3) Thanks! The layout is a product of boredom from when I was in Las Vegas a few months ago. I just played with this thing and found out how to do a lot of stuff. I love Rent, too! Austin gave me the cast recording for Christmas and I loooooooove it. The show was really amazing, too.

I'm sorry things haven't been going so well. I understand how it can get and I understand how it's not always easy to talk to people when you're stressed. I get like that, too.

Can you get another journal? I mean, I know it sucks to create a new one, but would it work if you did?

Oh, and I realized that the reason you don't know about the breast reduction (or didn't before now) is b/c I screwed up my friends list and didn't add you back. I went through this thing where I decided not to add anyone from school with few exceptions (because of what happened), and I'm holding to that, but I am going to add you back right this second. So lots of reading material for you, now! LOL.

Dec. 24th, 2004 02:54 pm (UTC)
aww it will be fine i can't wait to see you after how random that you are having it the x-mass eve at least when u are laying in bed you can listen to your ipod cause that's what we do now and i am starting an i-pod club at gibbons lol jk anyway i hope all is well i'll leave a word to the big guy upstairs for your safety anyway intresting how many dec. babies you know hehehe happy b-day to those dec babies
Dec. 25th, 2004 10:42 pm (UTC)
lol I wish we did have an iPod club. I'm going to set it all up and have some songs on it and have my mom bring it to the hospital. I'll wake up around 12:30, 1:00, something like that, so I'll have the whole rest of the day to sleep and entertain myself with something. And thanks for the prayers...it means a lot. :)
Dec. 24th, 2004 02:57 pm (UTC)
I just realized since i'm on cali time you most likely are in the cut up bed now so... i hope things are going as smooth as a baby's tushy
Dec. 25th, 2004 05:40 pm (UTC)
Nope, I'm in for the 29th, actually.
Dec. 25th, 2004 08:11 pm (UTC)
oh i get confused happy x mas last night i had a weird dream that mrs parr was upset about my grades in lit and she like hated me and wanted to attack me for doing poorly lol
Dec. 25th, 2004 10:42 pm (UTC)
Really? I had a dream the other night that I failed my finals.
Dec. 25th, 2004 08:12 pm (UTC)
oh yeah the 29ths my bday isn't that freaky lol
Dec. 25th, 2004 10:43 pm (UTC)
Very! Since I won't be here to wish you a happy birthday, I'll wish you one now: have a great birthday!
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