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Jul. 24th, 2004

ACidiC SODA [11:35 AM]: i'm in ashley lj withdraw lol
AWritersWindow [11:35 AM]: lol
AWritersWindow [11:35 AM]: :)
AWritersWindow [11:36 AM]: that makes me smile. I'll have to write today.
AWritersWindow [11:36 AM]: I'm going ALLLLLLLL the way back to catch up lol
AWritersWindow [11:36 AM]: it's taking forever
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: lol
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: i know
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: i was like looking
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: and was like
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: hey
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: she hasn't updated
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: what is this insanity coming to lol
AWritersWindow [11:37 AM]: lol

Jackie's just awesome.

So, apparently some people have missed me...especially my Julieness. I missed her too! :) Anyway, thanks to those who did miss me...it's so sweet!

Las Vegas was fun. I realized a lot of things about myself while I was there. I think the biggest point is what Mick told me: "It's my life." And you know what? It is. Why have I been spending so much time on other people's feelings and problems and what they want for me? I have a lot of resentment because of the lack of support I've received for some of my biggest decisions. I also saw that I can either let go of that resentment or tell the people to whom it is directed about it. I shy away from that a lot because I HATE to fight, despite how I might seem to flirt with controversy.

There was one night where I got so angry but held it all in. I got sick of all the comments and the questions that did not need to be asked (not by my godfathers, btw). I got so sick of being the good girl, the responsible one, the dependable one, the one that has more self-control than the rest of the group.

I had such a great time, and it concluded with me, Mick, Taylor, and Mason hanging at Mason's house (which kicks some SERIOUS ass, by the way) making tempura shrimp and lobster. I felt so comfortable with myself. It was just incredible.

So now I'm home and I get to talk to my Julie on the phone, and IM with Jon, and see what's up with Justice...and...yeah.

:)

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cheapblackpens
Jul. 24th, 2004 12:47 pm (UTC)
things have been hectic for the best six weeks because of GSE, but now I'm home for good (tear) and have soooo much to tell you!
awriterswindow
Jul. 24th, 2004 02:13 pm (UTC)
Well, one positive thing about you being home is that I get to see you. I'm actually coming on a Thursday...so I think it's the 5th, 6th, and 7th.

We'll talk as soon as you're ready to. Call me whenever that is. Don't be too sad, okay?

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