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Jul. 24th, 2004

ACidiC SODA [11:35 AM]: i'm in ashley lj withdraw lol
AWritersWindow [11:35 AM]: lol
AWritersWindow [11:35 AM]: :)
AWritersWindow [11:36 AM]: that makes me smile. I'll have to write today.
AWritersWindow [11:36 AM]: I'm going ALLLLLLLL the way back to catch up lol
AWritersWindow [11:36 AM]: it's taking forever
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: lol
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: i know
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: i was like looking
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: and was like
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: hey
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: she hasn't updated
ACidiC SODA [11:36 AM]: what is this insanity coming to lol
AWritersWindow [11:37 AM]: lol

Jackie's just awesome.

So, apparently some people have missed me...especially my Julieness. I missed her too! :) Anyway, thanks to those who did miss me...it's so sweet!

Las Vegas was fun. I realized a lot of things about myself while I was there. I think the biggest point is what Mick told me: "It's my life." And you know what? It is. Why have I been spending so much time on other people's feelings and problems and what they want for me? I have a lot of resentment because of the lack of support I've received for some of my biggest decisions. I also saw that I can either let go of that resentment or tell the people to whom it is directed about it. I shy away from that a lot because I HATE to fight, despite how I might seem to flirt with controversy.

There was one night where I got so angry but held it all in. I got sick of all the comments and the questions that did not need to be asked (not by my godfathers, btw). I got so sick of being the good girl, the responsible one, the dependable one, the one that has more self-control than the rest of the group.

I had such a great time, and it concluded with me, Mick, Taylor, and Mason hanging at Mason's house (which kicks some SERIOUS ass, by the way) making tempura shrimp and lobster. I felt so comfortable with myself. It was just incredible.

So now I'm home and I get to talk to my Julie on the phone, and IM with Jon, and see what's up with Justice...and...yeah.

:)

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justcallmepaco
Jul. 24th, 2004 10:30 am (UTC)
las vegas kicks so, so, so much ass, even if you can't gamble.

by the way how'd you do on the ap us exam?
awriterswindow
Jul. 24th, 2004 02:11 pm (UTC)
:) Actually, I won $60 bucks on a slot machine and my luck caused my godfathers to win $300. Go figure.

I got a 4. :)
justcallmepaco
Jul. 24th, 2004 03:44 pm (UTC)
lol. AWESOME. yay for passing AP exams! and yay for gambling. hehe. :D
cheapblackpens
Jul. 24th, 2004 12:47 pm (UTC)
things have been hectic for the best six weeks because of GSE, but now I'm home for good (tear) and have soooo much to tell you!
awriterswindow
Jul. 24th, 2004 02:13 pm (UTC)
Well, one positive thing about you being home is that I get to see you. I'm actually coming on a Thursday...so I think it's the 5th, 6th, and 7th.

We'll talk as soon as you're ready to. Call me whenever that is. Don't be too sad, okay?
missing_apart
Jul. 24th, 2004 06:29 pm (UTC)
hey ash!! i finally got my email verified by the LJ community!! jajajaja, now i can wirte posts on ur LJ!! *smiles* well keep wirting and ur novel is soo far great!
awriterswindow
Jul. 24th, 2004 07:04 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Fi! Are you talking about the one I sent you earlier?
missing_apart
Jul. 24th, 2004 07:07 pm (UTC)
yea! it is goooooood
awriterswindow
Jul. 24th, 2004 07:08 pm (UTC)
Yay! I'm so happy you think so.
ami_vrai
Jul. 25th, 2004 04:26 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you're back, I felt like you were gone forever! :)
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