Mike, I'm really worried about you.

It breaks my heart...

Those three little boys who died in Camden, NJ suffocated in the trunk of a car because they were playing and the latch closed on them...no one knew. Thank God they weren't murdered, but still. How scary does it have to be to be in a trunk with two of your friends (the boys were 5,6, and 11) and know that you may never come out? To have them dying around you and know you'll be next? It's so sad.

You Are An Apple Tree

You are quiet and shy at times, but you have lots of charm and appeal. You are quite attractive: your pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, and adventurous spirit draw people in. Sensitive and loyal in love, you want to love and be loved. You are a faithful and tender partner - who is generous in sharing your many talents. You love children, and you need an affectionate partner.

I love that! It's really accurate, I think.

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Part Playful Kisser

Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and play. You're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a party... Or you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dare... And you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right!

LMAO. Oh-kay...

Your IQ Is 110

Your Logical Intelligence is Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

I wonder what I'd get if I weren't exhausted?

Don't forget the previous entry!

I wonder sometimes if people really truly listen to what they say and how it sounds. I hear the most ridiculous things come out of people's mouths, and I think: I wish you could hear yourself right now.

A good example is all this Michael Jackson stuff on television. One juror came on a news show and said that she couldn't believe the little boy's story because "he couldn't look Michael Jackson in the eye." You. Moron. Okay, who in their right mind WANTS to look someone who molested them in the eye? It's not because he's lying. It's because he was fucking violated, you numbskull!

On the one hand, I almost hope this little boy really was lying because I hate to think that one more child in this world was violated and the person responsible got free. I don't understand why people feel the need to do those things to children. Why in the world would you even consider something so heinous? And if you did, why wouldn't you get help instead of carrying it out? Even if Michael Jackson didn't do it (which I highly doubt), it happens all the time to so many people.

The violence has got to stop.

The Rent Trailer




NOVEMBER 11, BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was pathetic. It was horrible. Carmen hated herself and hated them for listening to her.

"Hey, I have an idea," she said in an overloud voice to the two of them. "From now on, nobody listen to anything I say."
-The Second Summer of the Sisterhood by Ann Brashares

I never ask for anything from you as far as my lj goes...so do this, hm? Participate!

Post anything that you want here, and post it anonymously. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love... anything. Make sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post as many times as you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what others have to say.

When I hear somebody sigh, "Life is hard," I am always tempted to ask, "Compared to what?"
-Sydney J. Harris

Good point.

The big news of the moment is this whole permanent lj account sale taking place from June 7-8. This means that I would have space for 50 icons and I would never have to pay for my livejournal again. The price? $150. Eesh. Let's think about this for a second. $25 a year for a paid account. To get me through college, it would be $100. So basically, I'd be paying for 6 years worth of lj time in one payment, and I'd never have to pay again. I just really hate to give up that kind of money, though. It's a lot to give up in one shot. Plus, I just paid them $15 for six months the other day. *sigh* I don't know. I only have the 24 hour window to do it. I guess I'll just think about it for a while. Being a permanent member would be so cool...and I am totally devoted/addicted to this website (too bad I don't live in the Bay Area, I would so be asking for a job). So we'll see.

It's raining like crazy outside. Hm. Nice day to be indoors. Unfortunately, I have to leave for a doctor's appointment in about an hour. But I'm very very excited about tonight because Karli and I are going to see The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants! Yay! And I think Rach and Kat said they'd like to see it tomorrow, so it's going to be a sisterhood week for me. :) I've been looking so forward to this movie for MONTHS. Now it's finally here! The trailer keeps quoting these rave reviews, so I'm enthused. Yayyyyyyy!

So I've been talking to this girl who is going to be in Reynolds Hall with me at FSU. Her name is Janean, and I really like her. We have a lot in common, and we've been talking about everything from family to movies on IM for the past few days. I'm hoping we'll become good friends. I think we will. I'm also talking to this other girl, Nikki, who is going to be in Reynolds as well. Plus I met Kelly, who is going to be next door in Bryan Hall and has the same views as me about drinking and drugs (we don't need them to have a good time!). Yay! I think this will be okay after all. I can only imagine how the people who are going to college without people they know are feeling. I am so lucky to have Rach and Kat and Mike, even. At least I have some people from home that I love and that love me. It's all going to be okay.

My Underclassmen,

I'm writing this hoping that you all will read it...really read it. I'm not going to pretend to be the girl with all the answers, here, because I'm not. I don't know everything about life or high school. What I do know, though, is that I've been thinking about writing this to you all lately and I think it's the best thing I could do. I hear a lot of my classmates talking about regrets. What I can tell you from experience is that if you really play your cards right, you can leave and be so proud of yourself. The following will be a little jumbled, so bear with me:

Some of you will be juniors next year, and the rest will be seniors. The first thing I want to say is, make the most of the time you have left in high school, however much time there is. Make new friends instead of screwing around with the ones who create all the drama and make you cry constantly. Keep the people in your life who make you feel good about yourself. Spend time with them. Invest in other people. Be there for them and let them be there for you. Take pictures and save them. Do things for other people. Serve the community in a way that uses your unique gifts. In Avenue Q there's a lyric that says, "When you help others, you're really helping yourself." This is the truth. Sometimes when you go and help people, you wonder who helped whom more. I think service hour requirements are sort of bullshit because service to the community should be about wanting to serve instead of having to serve. Nevertheless, you've got a requirement and you should fulfill it if you want to get the hell out of Gibbons at some point. Seriously, get out there and do something. People need you. You will never know how amazing people are and how much they can touch your life until you get off your ass and help out. There are times where I do not want to go and volunteer, but when I dragged myself in to do it, I was so glad I did. And to be honest, having a nice amount of service hours can seriously pay you back for college in scholarship money. You're talking to a girl who knows.

Second, do not be afraid. Since pretty much all of you are drama kids, I'm going to quote Christopher Durang in Beyond Therapy and say, "Never be afraid to risk, to risk!" Tell people you love them or like them or crush on them or whatever. Don't just resist talking about it because you think they will reject you. And don't let the fear of rejection get in the way of you trying something! The old adage, "You never know until you try" is dead-on. If you're a techie and you want to try acting, get up on that stage! Write for the paper or the playwriting competition if you want to but have always been afraid to try. Do what you've always wanted to do.

Finally, keep the end in mind. I hate to sound like one of those motivational speakers, but think of how you want to leave Gibbons. I can't tell you how happy I am that I worked my ass off and was a Silver Knight, won the journalism award, was the editor of the paper, etc. I really feel like I did something. Get out there and do whatever it is you love so that when you leave high school, you'll be happy with it. Regret is an awful feeling because you cannot change the past. You can't go back and do it over. Life is not a dress rehearsal, as they say.

Hopefully, some of you read this and got something out of it. If not, oh well!

Love,
Ashley

P.S. Don't worry, seniors, I'm coming after you all in my lj tomorrow. :p

I caved in and got a MySpace account.

I just don't know how to use it.

Help!

My underclassmen (Karli, Austin, Steve, Sam, Fi, etc):

I was so moved by everything you all did to make tonight so special for me and the rest of my class. I'm not one who cries easily, but I was definitely crying on the inside. Thank you all so much. This was the most special showcase of my CGHS drama career and I have all of you to thank.

Austin- My love-ah...I wouldn't want to be in a plastic wading pool onstage talking about tiny chickens with anyone other than you. Thank you for being my partner in crime for four fantastic scenes and for being here with everything else. I love you...you know that.

Karli- You are the best. I've known you for such a long time...I feel like I've gotten to watch you grow up, and I'm so happy that you have not changed for the worse, but only for the better. I'm proud of all you've done in and out of drama. I know you'll only continue to be amazing, and I look forward to coming back and watching that happen as well. I love you!

Sam- the music thing was so brilliant and I loved it so much. I was so moved. You have such a wonderful heart...you and Chelsea both. Thank you. ♥

Fi- You rock..plain and simple. None of our shows could go off without you. Keep writing! ♥

Steve- You're awesome...loved the monologue. Keep stirring up LJ controversy and sparking debates! And never cross over to the Dark Side Right Wing. You're also such a sweet individual, and I love that. ♥

Thank you all!
♥
Ash

Your True Birth Month Is February

Sharp Ambitious Spendthrift Loves reality Loves freedom Temperamental Low self esteem Honest and loyal Abstract thoughts Daring and stubborn Changing personality Showing anger easily Intelligent and clever Loves aggressiveness Quiet, shy and humble Learns to show emotions Rebellious when restricted Determined to reach goals Superstitious and ludicrous Dislikes unnecessary things Realizing dreams and hopes Too sensitive and easily hurt Loves entertainment and leisure Romantic on the inside not outside Loves making friends but rarely shows it

Don't forget the previous antiprom entry!

I feel so loved!

Thanks so much to:

Rachel
Katie
Holly
Jen
Austin
Brittany
Karli
Fi
Sam

for my senior recollection letters.

Hopefully I didn't forget anyone...

Have no fear of moving into the unknown. Simply step out fearlessly knowing that I am with you, therefore no harm can befall you; all is very, very well. Do this in complete faith and confidence.
-Pope John Paul II

Rest in peace, Pope John Paul II

It's so sad that he's gone. I know he meant a lot to many people. While I didn't agree with everything he believed in, I appreciate the influence he has had on the world. He will be greatly missed.

Is anyone else writing senior letters for recollection?